Saturday, 19 May 2018

7 Songs

Last week was the rainbow... like you didn't get that straight away!

Now that I'm feeling a bit better, I thought I'd put up something happy so there's no link this week just songs that make me feel happy when I listen to them.

Mr B the Gentleman Rhymer: Songs for Acid Edward

I was never into rave but for some reason, this song makes me happy. I think it's partly because Mr B has been clever in fitting everything together, but also I just think 'Acid Ted' looks hilarious.

Queen: Breakthru

I don't know why this song makes me happy, but it does. The beat drives it on and there's just something fun about the song.

Neneh Cherry: Buffalo Stance

I love the 'character' Neneh Cherry plays here, and the track is quirky and fun.

Wicked: What is this Feeling

This is just so catchy and fun.

The Muppets: Bohemian Rhapsody

This is just fun, the Muppets are special anyway, and them covering one of the greatest rock songs ever is amazingly well thought out.

The Goons: Walking Backwards for Christmas

Again, this is silly, it just makes me smile.

The Bonzo Dog Doo Dah Band: The Urban Spaceman

The tune for this track just makes me smile, and the lyrics are sweet. The video is just bizarre, frankly.

Monday, 14 May 2018

Is There a Point?

My disintegration continues apace, it seems. I'm honestly wondering if there's a point to this living, this life, all this busyness that seems to add up to nothing but misery and more busyness. It all feels like a highly unsatisfying cycle where the best you can hope for is to make lemonade out of all the damn lemons life gives you.

Honestly, I'm starting to wonder if it's worth it, or if the best part of things would be to take a sharp exit to get off stage as quickly as possible.

I feel as if the best part of my adult life has been a waste of time, and as if I don't have anything to show for it apart from several failed projects and mental illness. Of course, it may be the mental illness that makes me feel this way but I don't know. In the same way, I know you're not meant to compare your life to anyone else's, but I look around and all I see is happy people, people who seem to know what their purpose in life is and to have found some sort of balance. I look at myself and I feel like I don't belong anywhere, like I kick up a fuss over stupid things, when everybody else seems happy with the same old same old. And I feel like I'm some sort of freak because of this.

It doesn't help that I feel most alone in a crowded room and that over time I've slowly lost most of my friends. This living doesn't seem to do me any good. I feel too caustic, like a stranger among my fellow countrymen, and I have days where I wonder if that's my fault. Should I have done things differently?

I'm so tired of the world, of the way there's no progress, the only changes seem to be bad and while it's heartening to see things like #metoo, they just make me feel guilty for being male. Especially as most of the time I look at my fellow men and I feel nothing that resembles a sense comradeship, looking at both genders, or sexes, or whatever, is like staring at alien species and feeling as if I'm eternally on the outside and wrong. Always, wrong. Eternally in the wrong. It's hard, to sum up, how sick I am of that. 

And again, though I don't mean to do anything hasty I must reassure you oh stalwart follower, I wonder if I'm meant to be among the living.

More and more I just want to be alone, to be far away from the rest of the species, free of the worries and anxieties of the modern world. I dream of houses in Highlands, of a place where I can just live in solitude and where it can just be me and a few animals. I'm getting to the point where I hate humanity and honestly, while I don't wish my fellow human beings any harm, I wish there were fewer of us. It might not help anything but it might. In the meantime, I suppose I'll have to settle for screaming, weeping and feeling like I don't have a place in the world. There's no rest for the wicked, after all, and no peace for the good.

Sunday, 13 May 2018

More Odd Questions

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Here, let me empty the contents of my head for you?

1)      Why do we still laud Richard the Lionheart as a great king when he bankrupted the country and barely spent any time here?

2)      Was William Rufus really killed by witches as a sacrifice to the Horned God?

3)      How many businesses were really run by women in the Medieval period?

4)      How much of modern morality derives on the Victorian age?

5)      Why do we laud the Greco-Roman world when it was so misogynistic?

6)      Was World War 2 the period that not only changed Britain but came to define it for the last 70 odd years?

7)      If we automated all work, what would humans do with themselves?

Saturday, 12 May 2018

Seven Song Saturday

Well, um, I missed yesterday (again) so I think I might just shift this to Saturday permanently and up the number of songs I post.

Last week's theme was Death, I have no idea if anyone got that, but yay if you did.

This week's is longer, harder, more power... oh wait, wrong blog... It's certainly longer because, as ya might have guessed from the title, we're going for 7 songs.

So let's get started.

Nena: 99 Luftballoons

Coldplay: Yellow

REM: Orange Crush

The B52s: The World's Green Laughter

Frank Sinatra: Blue Moon

Pete Murphy: Indigo Eyes

Hole: Violet

Wednesday, 9 May 2018

Things I Wonder

This is a list of the things I wonder about at times.

1) If you have a chair but you don't use it to sit on... is it still a chair? (Which is a roundabout way, I guess, of asking if form trumps function).

2) Did soldiers after Agincourt, Hastings, and other battles in Medieval history (and Ancient history) suffer from PTSD? Would they be more or less likely to suffer from it? After all, most soldiers in the past weren't trained only to be soldiers, the idea of the professional soldier is relatively recent (apart from outliers like Rome where serving as a Legionary was just part of being a citizen for a long time).

3) Do humans exist in a state of eternal paradox?

4) Why did anyone buy into the idea of the world being flat when so many ancient cultures knew it was round? As I understand it the claim that Columbus was a genius because he realised the world round came from that famed historian, Washington Irving (you know the guy who wrote Sleepy Hollow and Rip Van Winkle) who was a Columbus fanboy, so chose to exaggerate his achievements. Why anyone took that as confirmation is beyond me.

5) Is history, as an academic discipline, mostly a case of patting ourselves on the back and saying 'haven't we done well'?

6) Has politics become mere theatre to satisfy people that democracy matters? I mean, obviously laws are passed and debates are held, but does the shuffling of governments really change anything? I'm not sure it does, anymore.

Saturday, 5 May 2018

Saturday Favourites

I did mean to post this yesterday, but it didn't happen, so sorry about that.

Once again, I'll post five songs and there'll be a link between them. Just let me know what you think the link is. I think it's pretty easy this week.

Last week's was that all the songs had been covered by Amanda Palmer.

The Men Who Will not be Blamed for Nothing: Mutiny in the Common Soldiery

New Model Army: Here Comes the War

New Model Army: The Charge

Kate Bush: Army Dreamers

Traditional British Folk Air: Over the Hills and Far Away

Friday, 27 April 2018

Cinq Vendredi Prefere

Friday again, so five songs with a link - feel free to guess what it is.

Last week's answer was death.

This week we have:

Ben Folds: Brick

Radiohead: Creep

Death Cab for Cutie: I Will Follow you into the Dark

MIA: Paperplanes

Nirvana: Polly